Love is by Giving, not Getting. [;

2010-03-16T10:11:00.000-07:00

A couple of weeks before school starts.. wants it to happen yet not. >.<
Treatment's slowly helping my ligaments recover but would i be too weak to do anything after recovery. I'm way to active to even allow myself to sit still.
And when i force myself to sit still, this is what happens; a meaningless post just to kill boredom. ggnore.

2010-02-27T06:42:00.000-08:00

Introducing:

Shortie No.1(Yeo Xueli)

and of course Shortie No.2(April Jonghyun Tam)

HOW I GOT TO KNOW THEM?
Here's the full story,

Once apon a time, there was a tall and not bad looking guy walking pass the forest.(cannot praise myself too much) Then came 2 little dwarfs who were looking for a solution to become tall to protect themselves.Looking through everything that pass them, they found nothing and were almost on the verge of giving up. That was when they saw this tall and not bad looking guy.

Shortie No.1: "EH EH! See that guy so tall, why not we ask him how to grow tall?"

Shortie No.2: "YAAAA HORR! Lets go make friends with him and find out how to grow?"

Both: "HI! TALL AND NOT BAD LOOKING GUY, CAN WE BE YOUR FRIENDS? PLEASEEE."

Tall guy:"hmm, if only you two were as tall as me." still hesitating about his decision.

Tall guy: "NVM! i shall cast a magic spell to help you poorthings, andandand tadah!"

About is a picture of an EVIDENCE of the magic spell.
& the 3 friends live stupidly ever after
THE END

2010-02-20T11:04:00.000-08:00

Yes, there are definitely somethings we cannot control. but fuck the fact people are selfish by nature.

2010-02-15T12:33:00.000-08:00

tag replies!

Irwin : woah, scareded =X
S! : aiseh! you tagged. :D
Jielin : Updated alr!!! & students like you are so busy leh~ later call and disturb at the wrong timing. haha
Steph : i wanna be A.B.C la! ):
KimY.Kiat : WAITING YOU JIO LEH! FASTER (:
Passerby : Thanks for tagging, {:

2010-02-15T09:08:00.000-08:00

Happy 17th Birthday!
Merry Chinese New Year!
Happy Valentine's day!
C:

UPDATE LATER! CAUSE I'M LAZY NOW. =X

2010-02-06T05:21:00.000-08:00

I feel like running, jumping,hopping,skipping..
Just feel like being normal again

2010-02-02T19:19:00.001-08:00

the same melody keeps running through my mind over and over again.
What is it, that i really want?

2010-02-02T00:42:00.000-08:00

MY BROTHER'S BIRTHDAY!

So lil brother, you should be seriously concentrating on your PSLE (not that it means "Please stop learning english").
Cut those fats, and computer games now and then.
I believe you can score well this time and make us proud of you.

If i walk would you run,
If i stop would you come?
If i said you're the one, would you believe me.

shortlived happiness; at least it happened?

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2010-02-01T19:37:00.001-08:00

i shall blog, later. (:

2010-01-15T17:50:00.000-08:00

My gawd.
Life's becoming a routine; I'm a hatred towards repetition.

2010-01-04T04:58:00.000-08:00

working's hella tiring; but its worth it.
A lot of things have been happening recently which of course consist of right and wrong but i guess its still up to the person in choosing his own path.
Life's unpredictable & complicated.

2009-12-27T03:28:00.000-08:00

5star movie, superb!

2009-12-20T10:53:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Ah-ma!

2009-12-02T20:08:00.000-08:00

2009-11-29T19:45:00.000-08:00

Hong Kong-ed!

Will be uploading more pictures later on.(:

i've just had my 500 days of summer; autumn's finally here.

2009-11-23T19:13:00.001-08:00

My gosh, i miss my family so very much. >.<
Nevermind! I will be looking for them in another 3hours!
Go hongkong go! (:

2009-11-22T04:17:00.000-08:00

And with every end comes new beginnings. {:

2009-11-21T03:18:00.000-08:00

No matter how years feel like days, it will still come to an end soon ain't it.

2009-11-15T01:55:00.001-08:00

Its different & i don't like it.

2009-10-18T18:39:00.000-07:00

I'm losing it.

2009-09-26T07:11:00.000-07:00

I realised;

Having thoughts that it'd be another ordinary day trying to spend my precious time as wisely as possible, I finally had some peace in a toilet at some random shopping mall.
[alright, this may sound just a little crazy but that's not it.]

I was waiting for my friend to clear up his stomach when i heard this little boy and another man in a cubicle.
Straight away, i inferred that someone in the cubicle [ probably the father/son ] was doing the same thing like what my friend was doing.
That didn't amaze me, but what did was when they came out together [ my friend's still enjoying his time == ] and showed me what that bond among father and son was.

While washing hands, that boy asked "Daddy daddy, why must wash with soap?"
His dad replied, " Cause your hands will have gems la! "
The boy then listened to his father and pressed onto the soap button while his father carries him up to reach the sink. [ HAHA, yet another shorty. x) ]
This time was the father's turn, he pressed the soap button and continued to was his hands.
But this time, the cute little boy whipped his soapy hands onto his father's arms and said, "daddy daddy, your there also dirty."
The father literally gave the =.= face.
& then smiled at his son.
Haha, what a bond they have.

okay, end of story telling.
Now the main point!
I really wanna wanna wish my father a
Happy 45th Birthday!

Thank you for making everything that seemed impossible in my life possible.
& all the hard work you put into work just to allow us to live as comfy as we want really make me wanna be like you.
I know i may be disappointing at times in terms of my attitude, but i still wanna thank you for your tolerance, patience and of course the love you've always been showering onto me.
You're a great father, that I'll always respect.

2009-09-25T23:44:00.001-07:00

No boundaries;

go for it Jarrold, go for it!

2009-09-23T05:58:00.000-07:00

Ididn'tknowiwassuchamoodspoiler.

2009-09-20T19:42:00.001-07:00

I never thought of hurting you this much,
because i did try to accept you.

But i just wanted to be your friend.

My thoughts deluded me, as i thought you would be able to serve as a replacement.
It was when i was awaken, i realised i couldn't.
You deserve much better, no matter how much flaws others see in you.

I don't deserve your tears,
& i don't wanna feel sorry.
Because if i do, you'll only sink in further.

Takecare, my friend.

2009-09-20T19:07:00.000-07:00

1 more month till the big day;
2 more months till leaving school, as a graduate.

Life has been through all the tough times,
but i won't forget those whom put smiles into my memories

So as a motivation, this are the things i wanna do after Os.
-Learn to play the guitar.
-Be able to slack around with my friends, brothers & accepting for who they are and not what i expect them to be.
-Be an understanding son that contributes to my family. & not someone that only knows how to add on to troubles.

So, let`s GO!!

Life maybe deluding, but with goals;

You'll retain your right track, and get to where you were heading for.

2009-09-15T07:06:00.000-07:00

busy,busy, BUSY!

Today, i found out that life's so unpredictable cause my fish died outta a sudden.
And then i found out that i need to make a change and get them back.
I lied, once and twice and many many times that i would let her go, let it go.
But i didn't.

And this would never end, unless i want it to.

Changes starts from within.

It's time, to let go.
Finally.

2009-08-30T02:48:00.000-07:00

Bryce.leong mj [:

Life feels great afterall. (:

2009-08-24T05:50:00.000-07:00

realisation.

after all the words of anger / frustrations / fear, i've calm down.
start to ponder why more and more of my friends felt that change.
they must have their reasons; i'm sure.
Her. Him. and now She.
Three of my closest friends lost their patience with my change, while the rest might be still trying hard to endure.
I feel different, in an incorrect way.
Why can't i find back the courage to admit that everything was maybe just because of, me.
as well as the love that i used to share with, everyone.
I feel afraid, because though things seem to be normal.. i feel distant from them.

thinking through.

2009-08-22T23:10:00.000-07:00

she was right; absolutely true.
I guess she was correct when she hit that nail, spot on.

When I got hurt.
I planted revenge on everybody around me.
some teachers and most of my friends, plus my family;
gave my shit and unlimited vuglarities.

I'm now the one running away, not being myself.
sitting back to look at everything beautifully, is definitely what i said.
to you it's running, maybe not.

You complained to me because you trust me; you shouldn't have.
&didn't knew i wasn't a listener, until then.

Do i even know what is being remorseful or sorry; no i don't.
and at least i've found a way, so that at least one of us,
which is myself - will feel better. if that's what you think i am.

i ain't gonna make a sound, because somethings are better left unspoken.

ps; You make me sounded like a villain; yes, i am

2009-08-22T01:35:00.001-07:00

Still,I'dfailedtodoso.

I guess i would never be able to forget what happen for the whole of 4years;
To some of them i feel apologetic, and the others its just a matter of time when everything becomes less important and be kept as just memories.

i just wanna, prove myself wrong.

2009-08-15T20:58:00.000-07:00

dilemma.

When certain things change, it affects it's surrounding.
Which cause uncertain situations to occur.
From there, you'll have to start to adapt and learn how to move on.
And start to figure out the best choice through all the times of fear.
Being afraid to choose is normal, but being fickle is not.
A lot have happened, i have no time because there are really lots of important things to manage and i don't know which one should come first.
Gawd.

Could i break through this time; in a dilemma.

2009-08-10T02:04:00.000-07:00

Starting afresh(:

It's a 4day long holiday and i've spent my time slacking, playing, studying, enjoying.(:
If only we can have such holidays often so as to let ourselves relax a little, that will be superb. >.<
And since i'm so bored now, i decided to post a little and get on with studying later.
It's a fresh start after tiring myself so much by all the pressure life has given.
Can't wait for school to reopen and reach our final peak during the Os.

Give it, one last shot.

2009-08-04T07:27:00.000-07:00

Its only tuesday and i'm already feeling that tired, both mentally and physically.
I just can't seem to know what is the caused of all this and i don't know what on earth is wrong with me.
Days are just flying pass aimlessly & i so clearly know that my test of how my future will be is gonna hunt me down, soon.
Where's the motivation?
Or is it just me that is starting to get tired of everything, till even computer games bore me.
I so need a break to ensure that i'll find my break through.

wake me up.

2009-08-02T07:09:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Jacktoh & Joeldavid! :D

Met the guys up at 11 and travelled to Jack's house wanting to give him a surprise at 12.
Was kindda sorry cause Joel is gonna have his birthday one day later and we couldn't surprise him like all others. >.<
But i guess we've alr gave them both the best we can for once again, last year being in the same school.
Hope you guys loves the present. (:

And Jing remindered me that i have left with 84 days, 1 hour, 45 minutes and 21 seconds to GCE O levels paper one.
Really have to work harder for the remaining days alr.
Gogogogo! (:

2009-07-29T02:58:00.000-07:00

Prelims are finally over!
What a relief.
& that also means that O's are coming pretty soon.
Like what sir said "Its the last 100m, take a breather and give it all."
Everything is starting to get back to normal, on the track where it used to be.
Really have to thank Oct for adding oil through my breakdowns, furstrations and most of all the prelims.
Thank you thank you.(:
Though i really feel like slacking because of the tired week of prelims, but it isn't time to do so.
Have to work doubly hard like how Mdm Chin said.
Its just the beginning.

Happiness, your own definition.

2009-07-24T00:10:00.000-07:00

Dealingwiththechanges.

Finally able to take a break...
Life is, tiring.
Been rather ignorant towards my surroundings, i don't know why the change.
Or maybe to say that i'm all ready to look for something new, because the usual feelings are starting to feel blank.
Taking it day by day, lets see what's gonna happen.

I want to be happy, but how to?

2009-07-12T06:33:00.000-07:00

Fun, laughter, joy.
Upset, lost, tired.
Found, uncertain, hopeful.

This week contains every feeling listed up there, one hella rollar coaster ride i must say. >.<
I'm slowly turning into study mode yet again for the upcoming week.
Its gonna be a busy year.

Its the truth that somethings should be left unspoken cause feelings exist.
For real or rumour, i can feel a difference.
I know it may be cause of my certain change you guys may think i'm not me no more.
Like the most unatural creature on earth, the Jarrold that no one knows.
But i can't possibly please everyone,& i dont have that capability to do so.
So I'm sorry if my leaving w/o a word did bugged; but things aren't the same.
& if there isn't trust that i'm still me, i don't think there's a point in continuing in anything.
I am a human, & i still do feel.

Celebrated Jey's birthday with bfam + their girls.
had lots of fun.(:
It may be the last year of celebrating everyone's birthday, but i guess there's nothing to be sad for.

Aiseh woah !

2009-07-03T09:02:00.000-07:00

O-R-A-L.
Hell it was nerve-racking!
!#$@!#^%*!@# (!!!)
But still managed to pull through, phew.

Had been studying real hard for the A.Math papers but it was postponed till next Wednesday.
Guess its giving another chance to perfect my math.
& I so wanna play for the next 2 days of weekends + youth day.
Nothing much really, but i kind of missing the times in Redang.
Carefree space to breathe, sunshine everywhere!(:
Haha.

The past does not matter anymore, it's the future I'm more concern for.

2009-06-28T00:16:00.000-07:00

So i guess this will kind of be the last post till i'm free from studying.

Just had a cold shower, feels great to calm down whenever you're feeling confused.
but i guess i really have to put this confusion that i always been having aside and really give it my best try for the upcoming major examinations.
It's now or never.

imy;

2009-06-24T20:33:00.000-07:00

Went down to Causeway point to watch Transformers 2; Revenge of the fallen with family.
One word for that show; awesome!(:

2009-06-24T06:34:00.000-07:00

When down to Vivo to do shopping! :D
James wanted to buy berms and tshirt cause he say school gonna reopen.
I was wondering what's it gotta do with school, but in the end still accompanied him.
Esther and Eugene was there as well. (:
I was feeling damn tired after walking for the whole day so i left first as they went to Queensway to continue their shopping spree.
I was feeling damn bored, but that Octopus crack sucha joke that i smiled and laugh after reading it.
People were staring at me, damn malu. >.<

I shall share it with you all!

I know someone who is very dumb.
When she miss the 44 bus, she took the 22 bus twice.

Ahahahas!
You'll burst into laughter when you're feeling super bored and this comes. :D

Oh and i bought a shirt which is has funny wordings on it.
Can't wait to wear it out.
Lol.
(:

2009-06-22T00:23:00.000-07:00

Had two consecutive celebrations of Father's day.
Great fun.(:

To think i used to be an ass that stayed at home every now and then,
I would always spend my extra time with my friends, neglecting my family.
But i'm learning to come back to be the guy that used to smile so much w his family.
Thanks to the Redang trip,
made new friends, becoming a cousin that everyone knows &
becoming a step closer with my family. :D

Saturday!
My family went to IMM's swensens for dinner.
We were laughing so much that we didn't even notice the time.
The mall was about to close, and it still felt as if i just stepped in.
See how time flies with happiness?(:

Sunday!
Hell lots of travelling today.
So much that i had a serious car sick.
And i was feeling damn frustrated with the noisy environment.
But thanks to Octopus,
She taught me how to fight car sick.
Felt better, way better.(:
Thankyou.
Haha
We then went to have steamboat dinner at Yiochukang,
& GUESS WHAT?!
My brother paid for the dinner
Here's his photo holding onto the receipt. :D

Ain't he cute?

Oh, and i bought my handphone alr.(:

5megapixel camera leh, so clear.

Haha

2009-06-20T02:16:00.000-07:00

I was looking through the photographs taken in Redang to post on blog, but i couldn't seem to find any one of them nice because of my fat face. >.<
So, i guess i shall not post any & i swear i'd take another photo till i slim down.(:
damn fats.
Haha.

Tried studying a little and such but fell asleep as soon as the air-condition cool down my bedroom. =/
& i have like 2weeks exact to prepare for the up coming A.Math test.
I'm so not prepared. >.<
I guess it's time to start to jio people out to study le.
Haha, and the first one surely gonna be Jielin mei.
Sucha long time since i've last saw her.

2009-06-17T08:55:00.000-07:00

I've gave enough, it's time to let go.

I am finally back from Redang!(:
& it was hell of a trip to experience i must say.
Will post the pictures when my parents comes back from Genting with the camera.
They are damn energetic when it comes to gambling.
Why did i said so?
It's because after 3d2n of intensive activities, they could come home and rest for like 4hours and drive up to Genting the following morning.
How cool is that uh.
So i am left alone at home with my sister and she does the cleaning while i do the feeding of fishes.
& feeding them really do need lotsa patience when the worms they eat are all hidden under hays.
Need to scrutinize and look for it so hard.
>.<

Went down to Cineleisure to watch Ghost of girlfriend's past and the storyline was awesome.
& i was really into that movie.
The producer did get a connection w me as his audience i guess.
5stars. :D
Got me thinking through stuffs at the same time.
Well, but i guess it ain't no longer important.

So i had a marvelous trip to Redang,
& I'll be starting to enjoy my next numbered days to O's.
All the best, Wooha!(:

2009-06-10T02:00:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, life just travels at such a fast pace that we tend to forget.
Forget the purpose of living, friends etc.
It's later when you sit down and think of it, you'll realised the ones who have been there for you all the time.
Regardless of how much time spend together, communication and understand.
There's always a certain position for a particular person.
Its after today, i should be thankful for those who stood by me all the time.
Thank you Joeldavid.
Thank you ChenJieLin.

I was supposed to have Chemistry lessons at 11 but i overslept w/o hearing my alarm ring, guess it didn't rung at all.
Went down to school for English enrichment that i felt was useful.
The way we are suppose to write to get our audience etc.
There is more to learn for sure.
Haha.
Had a talking session w Joeldavid on the way to the barber shop.
Its been long since I've talked to him.
But he's still him, and thats a great thing to know cause I thought we've drifted apart cause of the hectic life we are both having.
:D

Best friends understands each other, always.

Time after time

2009-06-08T02:02:00.000-07:00

Yet another tiring day.
Well through hell with Humanities.
4.5hours of Geography and 1.5hours of Social Studies.
& I'm seriously very frustrated with the long hours of studying the same subject thing here.
It's so hard to manage time changing to study/ holiday mood everyday.
You can't have a thing to focus on.
I don't like multi-tasking, in fact i hate it.
I need a break, a long one.

time after time.

Stucked at home

2009-06-06T09:00:00.000-07:00

Stuck at home for the whole day.
& was about to rot to death.
But lucky for the great late night Saturday movie screened on channel 5. :D
Failure to launch, a love comedy.
It's really awesome and even though I've already watched it 2 years ago on the plane returning from Korea, its still worth catching it again.
Really missed the times where I would watch almost all of the movies screening.
Hadn't caught any movie in like 13792164913216 years.
Oh and i just saw the whole 100+ pages of Geography questions we have to do for assignment & it's terrifying. >.<
Guess I'll be very busy the whole of next week until i leave for holidays.
Best of luck. =/

Jielin

2009-06-03T03:48:00.000-07:00

:D
Today's so productive.
As like yesterday, woke up and reached school at eight for Geography lessons.
Though it was not engaging as Mr Tan did all the talking, at least i realized that I'm suppose to start studying as there's really a lot to catch up with.
All the memorizing, understandings, applications etc.
It got me all motivated to start studying and get rid of the habit of slacking like what I've been doing recently.
Haha.
Nevertheless, Jarrold's gonna start picking up his books again. (:
What i was contented about was i actually spent time completing my essay that I've to write for English lesson.
Though it was not perfection, but i am still proud of my work.
Heh.
Oh another thing, stupid Jielin mei don't wanna let me take photo of her with the white headphones.
Somehow, that sight was attracting me cause i keep looking at her.
Its looks just so....
Can't seem to find a word to express. >.<
Haha, sucha waste.

2009-06-01T08:20:00.000-07:00

Finally done the O level's Chinese paper. (:
It was do-able but i don't really know what's the standard of the paper.
Some said it was extremely easy while others complained not so.
I'm sitting on the fence as i don't wanna be over-confident about my paper and feel disappointed if the results didn't went my way. >.<
But still hope the results would be the best one.
Haha.

Some "PRO" online on ebuddy but never talk to me.
Wanted to start talking de, but hor go finish the toilet.
Then gone liao. ):
siaaaaaaaan laa. -.-
Lol

2009-05-29T08:08:00.000-07:00

48 Hours left to the first O level paper for Chinese.
Time is seriously running out and I've still lots to study for.
I'm so tired trying to maintain the pace I'm studying at. ):

Also i got to know the school's expectations for me for the Examinations,
And it was kind of disappointing cause L1R4 was at 14.
I don't know but all i guess i could do is to really work hard for the next 5 months.

Every thing is happening so fast that i could not really have much to feel for it,daily routines, etc.

&I'm so gonna on a holiday this coming June !
Need to wind up. >.<

2009-05-23T08:47:00.000-07:00

Been using the computer since 10am this morning, and its getting pretty boring.
Something is so wrong with my computer.
It's lagging once a while and it's pissing me off. -.-
Maybe its trying to tell me to give it a break.
Anyone has any videos that they think it's worth watching and are willing to lend me?
Boredom's killing me.
Haha.
救命！
&
我们的纪念 is sucha nice song.
(:

刘荷娜！

2009-05-22T06:15:00.000-07:00

很美吧? :D

Aviate

2009-05-21T05:20:00.000-07:00

Finally have the time to post. >.<
I've been super busy managing my studies for the past one week.
Gosh, I'm feeling super tired of Chinese cause we've been doing mock papers everyday just to be prepared for the upcoming O's.
It's kind of too much to handle i must admit.
But I'm proud that I put in effort into every paper.(:
Had been watching 放洋的星星 and i finished it in 3days.
Must say that the storyline kept me find out what happen after every episode.
So I'm gonna rate it at 5/5; super worth watching. :D
Oh and i so like 夏之星。
She is so attractive when she acts.
Too bad i can't find any pictures of her online. ):
Haha

1million possiblities

2009-05-15T08:31:00.000-07:00

School was practically short for me today as i high-ed through all my lessons today. :D
It was until when we have to wait for another 4hours and 30mins before we could all go home as there was English examination.
It was damn boring.
Later did i know that not only was it boring, i also screwed my situational writing.
Misinterpret the question totally.
Seriously i did not know what to feel because its already done and i know i can do nothing about it.
Sums up to my understanding towards life as well.
What's done is done, and what can be do after is really your choice.
Whether it should be a miserable one, or just another stepping stone.

So, in order to reward myself for not saying that I'm not giving up after one failure.
I bought myself a pack of calbee chips and a kinderjoy
[since everyone is saying that is superb.]
Finally after so long I've indulge myself in food.
I was thinking of trying the taste of "superb" kinderjoy when i realised,
the toy i got was a tv man.
LOL !
That April Tam aim so long also cannot get then keep complain in class.
Aiyah, might as well just give it to her.
Since it so lameeee.
Haha. :D

Mathematics !

2009-05-14T04:45:00.000-07:00

Finally finished E.Math mid-year examinations yesterday. :D
Its kind of a relieve to know that i know how to do most of the questions but unfortunately, i also found out after the test that I've made a couple of careless mistakes.
Pissed.

Had a little chat with Daddy on the car today [ man-conversation.]
=/
Later did i realised that every time i spoke to him, there will be another thinking point.
We were talking about my studies and the future i would wanna choose.
I started to ponder over whether to go into Poly or JC.
Because for my situation now, I'm just simply working hard for the O's and not thinking of where to go after that.
And i don't like the feeling of hanging in the middle of "NO" where.
I want to be proud after my O's that i can be "NOW" here.
What triggered me to start thinking about this again is when Sir mentioned that humans are more driven when they have a destination that they wanna reach during English class.
so i REALLY need to decide it soon.
help. >.<

Jarr's Philosohy

2009-05-08T20:28:00.000-07:00

so i managed to wake up to go to the gym with Jielin mei.
Its had been some time since I've spoken to her already,
so as usual, we started to take turns to rant about all the stuffs that were unhappy, stupid, funny, dumb, silly etc.
Oh gawd i realised something as well, my face is damn chubby now. >.< I was called " fat ass! " by a senior that saw me on my way to the gym. Feeling strange as never in my life i had been called a fat, i looked up and to my surprised, he was screaming in disbelieve. =/
He can't believe that i had grown so fat after only one year. Lols
Ironically, i wanted to grow fat so that i could build up my muscles.
But I'm starting to get confused cause i look fat & i don't like looking fat.
oh damn -.-
but nevertheless, enjoyed talking to that silly sister of mine la. :)

After that went down to aunt's house for mother's day celebration, and yet again..
People were shocked cause I've grew fatter. >.<
Guess I must start to get use of people calling me fat already.
Haha.
Ate, play , laugh and all.
Really missed all the fun times with my cousins.
All of them have already grown so much.
& another thing to be happy for,
Ahma can start to walk already, means she'll be home soon. :D

2009-05-07T23:05:00.001-07:00

And guess what, yet another week has pass. =/
Haha.
Been really busy studying this whole week that I've alr been cutting down the amount of games i play per day.
and working out everyday just became my new hobby cause i am growing fatter day by day. :)
oh and since some people reading my blog had been complaining about the spelling errors and mistakes on my post, I'll try to be more careful.
Like for example, the word "diligently" was spelled wrongly.
damn embarrassing. >.<
thus, I've decided to start writing English perfectly.
Its kind of hard for someone like me whom is blind at times i must admit.
But nevertheless, its worth a try. =/
Okay, so I'm super bored now.
Shall spend some time sleeping and completing up my homework instead of wasting time stoning in front of the computer.
Haha.

2009-05-01T03:01:00.000-07:00

Studied deligently and paid full attention to all my classes today even though slept damn late last night.
haha.
Don't know why this few days v high.
Can't seemed to have not enough energy to spend. =/
Went to the S.Y.F showcase organised by the school as to show us this year's fruitful results each and everyone achieved.
The concert was awsome, i was practically sitting down there enjoying myself listening, watching, understanding and all.
Its been long since i've seen such performance or even participate in such events since p6 when i was in the C.O in my primary school.
haha.
Here are some pictures taken ; (:

and as smiliar as what i've told Joel even way before the concert started,

i did have hell lots of fun, joy and laughter yesterday! :D

2009-04-28T01:11:00.000-07:00

Had school as usual,
wasn't tired till the last period of math when i was supposed to do my homework for the day.
Laziness took over me. =/
so Sihao came over since there wasn't any supplementary due to the oral examinations.
I'll be taking mine in a week's time, kind of anxious after having the oral lessons Sir have been giving.
Because it just make me feel that i'm not good enough.
Challenging though the teacher that will be testing me is Mr Tan.
He's been giving me high marks for the past few years. :D
hahah
Read this up on the net ;
9 simple tips to make you happy.(:
( wonder if it really helps. >< )

1. Raise your activity level to pump up your energy. If you're on the phone, stand up and pace. Walk to a coworker's office instead of sending an e-mail. Put more energy into your voice. Take a brisk 10-minute walk. Even better...

2. Take a walk outside. Research suggests that light stimulates brain chemicals that improve mood. For an extra boost, get your sunlight first thing in the morning. Find the best walking workout for your exercise style.

3. Reach out. Send an e-mail to a friend you haven't seen in a while, or reach out to someone new. Having close bonds with other people is one of the most important keys to happiness. When you act in a friendly way, not only will others feel more friendly toward you, but you'll also strengthen your feelings of friendliness for other people.

4. Rid yourself of a nagging task. Deal with that insurance problem, purchase something you need, or make that long-postponed appointment with the dentist. Crossing an irksome chore off your to-do list will give you a rush of elation.

5. Create a more serene environment. Outer order contributes to inner peace, so spend some time organizing bills and tackling the piles in the kitchen. A large stack of little tasks can feel overwhelming, but often just a few minutes of work can make a sizable dent. Set the timer for 10 minutes and see what you can do. In that time, take a quick look around the house and see how to get organized using everyday items.

6. Do a good deed. Introduce two people by e-mail, take a minute to pass along useful information, or deliver some gratifying praise. In fact, you can also...
7. Save someone's life. Sign up to be an organ donor, and remember to tell your family about your decision. Do good, feel good―it really works!

8. Act happy. Fake it 'til you feel it. Research shows that even an artificially induced smile boosts your mood. And if you're smiling, other people will perceive you as being friendlier and more approachable. There's no need to walk around in a constant state of worry. After all, what's the worst that can happen if you bounce a check or leave wet clothes in the dryer?

9. Learn something new. Think of a subject that you wish you knew more about and spend 15 minutes on the Internet reading about it, or go to a bookstore and buy a book about it. But be honest! Pick a topic that really interests you, not something you think you "should" or "need to" learn about.

haha.
To anyone that would be free enough to try out this 9 tips when you're feeling down,
please tell me if it works. (:
*curious*

I think i'll be gonna to have a good long sleep after posting.
Its a tiring day today, a really tiring one.

it hurts when you said those words.

i don't feel that i am different,
but you've just proved what i've always been believing, wrong.

2009-04-25T21:24:00.000-07:00

Woke up feeling damn tired.
It just feels like as if i've just ran 2.4km, totally no strenght. -.-
I was thinking to stay at home untill Jielin asked if i wanna go study with her.
And since i've a problem in my matrices, went ahead and met her up at westmall's mac.
Didn't really talk much at first but this mei of mine never fails making me zi high.
So in the end i kicked all my sianness away and we did really had great laughs.
haha.
Shall upload the pictures later. (:

2009-04-22T06:42:00.000-07:00

Alarm woke me up at 5.30 today so i could finish up on english homework

That shows the fear i have for sir. LOL !

okay, i was joking.

Its simply cause i wanna study hard !(:

So i headed on to school feeling excited, nervous, anxious about the match was gonna be played later in the evening.

It was the first and last match i'd be playing as a keeper.

Coach's plan to let me enjoy my passion for soccer. =/

I had no keeper's training, till my warmup.

haha.

Had fun kicking around with my teammates that had been thru` thick and thin with me.

Thru` my career, my trainings and even my injury period.

Wanna really thank all of you for believing that i'd return to the field and move forward as a team.

Even though i didn't really make it back, i really feel estatic to have to end my soccer career in secondary school life with all of you all.

:D

PICTURES of zi lian kuangs! ;

TeoKienKiat! (:

No.8- Eugenekoh, No.9- teoKienKiat

NO. 1 - JarroldLim! (:

Acting cute again. =/

Memories. :D

MONDAY !(:

2009-04-20T04:06:00.000-07:00

Was woken up by mum super early today.

6.45 when the usual timing was supposed to be a 7. -.-

my 15mins of sleep! ):

haha

Nevertheless, was still kind of hyper in school laa.

Determined to study alr. (:
Brought sleeping bag for Belicia's brother who is actually in our school.

i didn't knew till just. =/
He was shocked when he saw me, i guess he must be wonder why would a gigantic guy look up for him early in the morning when he is so super small size.

Their whole family all short de. Lol

Had normal lessons till recess where we were dismissed early as there was a soccer match we had to attend.

oh, its kind of sad to say that we've been kicked outta the nationals after today's lost.

but i personally felt that our team is a v. unique one.

Good job putting out whatever you have for the past few months, we've tried our best.

So lets all study for our exams!

hahaha.

Here's some pictures of my two know-for-so-long teammates! ;

both of them love to act cute as you can see from the pics. LOL!

HOT !

2009-04-19T07:31:00.000-07:00

Its really getting on my nerves having to face the hot weather nowdays. =/
I met up with Joel yet again at bangkit to purchase a pair of white shoes for school.
He wanted to find the kappa's edition but we end up buying the same pair as what kiat's wearing.
There wasn't really much of a choice at that shop and we needed the shoes laa, so have to give in lorhs.
haha.
Chatted with him about life as usual, and realised that there have been a lot we've both been missing out from each other lives.
Partly caused by the hectic school life we're facing.
But he's still so the Joel i knew laa. (:

ohya, and something really got on my nerves as well apart from the sun.
i was actually in a great mood but when we were about to have dinner together,
the uncle at the coffeeshop was so unreasonable. -.-
he screwed me up just for saying, "ya, okay."
wonder what's his problem.
maybe the hot sun these few days burned his brain.
Lol.
can't be bothered by him. =/
ohya, will be posting photos on my blog le.
cause really v. sian with just words.
hahah.
First gonna be a sun since its so damn freaking hot this few days. -.-

Relived those days

2009-04-18T09:21:00.000-07:00

Went for soccer training early in the morning, was kind of sleepy but still wanted to commit myself to the team.
But everything went so wrong when i got scolded by coach.
Not only me though.
The whole team was badly reprimanded for the mistakes we were making.
Its kindda disappointing cause we did really tried our best,
but nothing seems to be correct in the eyes of the coach.
Ended up having to do runs instead of kicking.
I don't know what else to say, but how i wish i wasn't injure.
At least i'll be able to do more.
haha
But that's if only everything was what it used to be laa.
=/

Oh, so i did meet up with Joel, Jack, Jeydee, Kienkiat, Eugene and we headed down to heeren to exchange my 20dollars billabong gift dajie gave on my birthday.
haha.
Bought a pair of new slippers since my previous one has flaws.
And it cost $2.90! :D
Then Joel sudden urge of wanting to play basketball got us ended up at segar sweating and having hell lots of fun.
Its been long since all of us had gathered and spend time together especially when the work school's giving has no end to it.
I really enjoyed this day, and it really feels like nothing would bring us apart.
Cause even with little communications nowdays, we still managed to chat and laugh and joke and fool around like how we used to have done so.
hahaha.
Thank you brothers!(:

Done with emo-ing(:

2009-04-17T04:45:00.000-07:00

okaaaaaaaay!
i'm sick and tired of .... EMOING.
so shall put on that great big smile again! :D
lols.
Really was so damn tired with life for the past few days that i had no feeling to do anything, at all.
Even dotaing, i just got so pissed whenever i did something wrong.
Childish behaviour. -.-
oh, so i just chat with Jielin on msn.
Though it was a really short one cause she gtg, i realised she's still the one who supported and push me through.
Wonder what it would be like without her, super miserable.
haha.
Thats how important she is.(:
Waiting for Joel's reply on whether tmr wanna go and buy shoe tgt anot.
Really hope that he could make it bah, since it has been a long long time since i've went out with him.
*cross fingers.*
Lol

2009-04-15T06:55:00.000-07:00

I just can't understand why.
I hate to lose in things that i love to do.
But it always fails when i tried so hard to go back into soccer but my fken knee still hurts so bad.
Tomorrow's the nationals and all i am here doing is nothing.
There's practically nothing i could do about it.
I'm tired, i really am.
sigh.

2009-04-13T05:45:00.000-07:00

Woke up feeling super tired today cause slept only at 12 last night after the css thing. haha. Though Joselin wasn't the champion but she did let everyone enjoyed last night with her singing laa. (:
I was kind of enthusiastic to attend school cause i know that my dear Jielin mei would be giving me my belated birthday present today.
She complained that the calender she did had a lot of flaws and all, but when i opened the wrappings and saw it.
What actually was in front of me was the most touching gift i've ever recieve.
It was a HAND-MADE calender of the photos i had taken on my trip to taiwan with the all big great smile i had from enjoying myself there.
I saw no flaws, but instead all the care, love, concern this particular person had for me.
I was touch, really. (:
So, this post for you yeah mei!
Really wanna thank you so much for putting in the effort even with the hectic life you're having.
I'm really thankful getting to know you.
Thank you! :D

haha, went for training as usual later on.
i wanna strive, and get to where i used to be.
That place where all smiles will be.(:

2009-04-11T09:49:00.001-07:00

Woots, its saturday! :D
haha.
woke up early in the morning just to attend training.
Managed to bear it through with those aching muscles so i must say that i'm really proud of myself. (:
Later on went to have breakfast with soccer mates.
Kindof interesting when you spend time with people whom speaks the same language to you. SOCCER !
haha.
Headed down to coach's client after for therapy. [ muscles aching like hell ]
Though i'm able to play soccer nowdays, i knew that i wasn't still on the fitest i could be laa.
so... went coach said that my knee was stable cause of the joints.
i wasn't shocked nor disappointed.
i just felt awkward cause i think he knew that i love soccer a lot.
so he just tried to kept things with the positive side.
asking me to study and all.
haha.
its kindof a sad thing when you know that you can't do what you'd love to.
but, i guess its only right for me to rest and continue later on.
休息是因为要走更长远的路。
that's what i've picked up from quanyi's 歪道理 during chinese class.
LOL!
haha.
spent a little time chatting on msn and gaming before wanting to start on studying.
Add math test on tues, so i guess i've to gambateh le!(:

it feels different, ain't the same anymore.

2009-04-09T06:59:00.000-07:00

Had training after school today.(:
Its kind of crazy to think that i've just sprint 20 times across the field.
But it seriously have been a long time since i've really push myself for more.
The nationals is gonna start next week and i really don't wanna lose what i've lost last year. Enduring the pain i had from a fall before a practice 2 side started, i managed to finish the training only to know that i had cramps and my knee was in pain later on.
Its kindda dumb but i just feel like pressing on.
So went to the rehersal for jos performances on sunday.
Haha.
though its a little boring, never regreted supporting her laa.
so Jos, must jiayou for finals hor! :D
oh ya, must thank mummy so much.
she so nice, woke up just to send all of my friends home cause there was no more bus.
so i shall haolian a bit.
"I HAVE SUCH A WONDERFUL MOTHER!"
don't get jealous.
hahaha
tired, but at the same time i'm feeling contented with my life.
Simplicity(:
okay, hope would be meeting Joel tmr to go and buy shoe together after training.
:D

2009-04-08T05:15:00.000-07:00

HAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPY:D
HAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPY:D
HAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPY:D
HAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPY:D
HAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPY:D
HAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPY:D
HAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPY:D

LOL. i also don't know why i today so happy, but yeah.
its GOOD feeling like this! (:

2009-04-04T21:06:00.000-07:00

Visited ahma yesterday.
Feels like it have been ages since i've saw her.
She's alright i presume as i did heard her continue to ask whether 4D got win anot.
haha.
Cute la she, so weak alr still got mood buy 4D.
Been really slacking this whole week, nothing seems to be related to studies.
To be realistic, there's only less than 20weeks more to the major exams.
And every week is passing by so fast that i kindof lost counting.
Still have so many hell lots of subjects to study, learn, revise, understand, apply.
LOL !
dieeeee liao laaaa.
i'm starting to get stressed up cause of all this.
but still using the comp now. -.-
okay, i'ma finish english homework & revision for math test today.
hope i'll make it through. lol

2009-04-02T01:38:00.000-07:00

Its kindof a slacking day today since quite a lot of teachers weren't around to teach
& plus time really flies now because most of the lessons are interesting for example english, its really becoming quite a joy to study. (:
The sad thing is that i realised i've been slackening and not really getting my homework done up tp date. =/ so shall post and remind myself to continue to work hard.
haha.
ohyaaa, another thing.. hope that mei of mine which thinks that she's super dumb to start to 正做起来！

& lastly, Happy Birthday April Tam! :D

2009-03-28T09:02:00.000-07:00

Was suppose to have training today, but it was cancelled.
so in the end accompanied Jielin mei to the gym. Lol
somehow, i still don't wanna give up on my soccer carreer for now.
Since i was the one who injured myself, i shall return what's correct and strenghten my knee.
Then jiu pei that stupid mei of mine to her tuition.
haha, i saw a group of guys playing soccer so i kek kiang go and play a while.
Then crack one sound, pain awhile but now okay le. LOL
kindof used to it alr, and i'm like expressing it w/o anymore hard feelings. :D
So went home and rest till now lorh.
DAMN BOREED!
guess this few days keep playing dota till sian le,
can start serious STUDYING alr! (:
lol

2009-03-20T08:45:00.000-07:00

Its friday yet again.
Which means that school's gonna reopen soon.
Ain't know if thats a good or bad thing.
Good cause can continue to study and get my targets.
Bad cause its gonna get very tiring. lol
Okay, cut the crapping.
I did'nt attend soccer training today again, cause i just felt that my knee still need rest.
& plus it still feels pain after tripping over on wednesday while walking to school.
dumb.-.-
so i went to look for ahma.
all smiles on her when she saw everyone surrounding her.
i was smiling as well but did'nt notice till my ahgong told me i was.
he said," 你每次都闷闷的，但今天你看到 ahma 就很高兴."
hahaha.
sorry lurhs ahgong, its not that i always siansian one.
Its just that i don't like spending time doing nothing.
so instead of stonning, i will sleep or look tired maa.
ohyaa, ahgong shared with us his past with ahma.
very cute story but it also showed that he's aged a lot.
Today's really a meaningful day.
I just felt i've gain something more from what i used to be.(:

2009-03-19T03:19:00.000-07:00

一首简单的歌。
had been digging up classic songs that were once my favourites.
and the song above is another song from wanglihong.
Though its a very old song, i'm still listening to it again and again.
wonder what's so attractive of this particualar song.
Lols.
Been rather slack this holidays because i only attended Chemistry lessons.
Is not that i pon lesson, just that i always over-slept. =/
and its just nice that Chemistry was after the time i woke up.
haha.
Staying at home really can be a bore at times.
i wanna go out! -.-
but the problem is no money.
siansation. Lol
okaaaaaaay,
doneee with posting. (:

2009-03-14T07:44:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday TeoKienKiat/ Edward James & Marcus Lim! (:
Their birthday both falls on the same date & both are friends i would wanna cherish.

Stayed at home today making full usage of the computer relaxing myself.
The whole of last week really instored with lotsa events and happenings.
Shall'nt post about it since what has past, is already a part of history. :D
[ an excuse for me cause` i'm lazy as well laa. ]
Went bloghopping and was fed-up with some post i've seen today.
Seriously, i just can't stand seeing the reality of life.
Some could just don't care of how other people would feel or even if they knew that it would affect someone with what their doing, they just simply continue doing it.
I guess they just simply don't care of others except for themselves.
Was so aggitated and angry till i find no fun in playing my games anymore. -.-

so i went to watch the soccer match b/w Liverpool n ManUtd.
Thats why i loveeeeeee soccer so so much!
It literally made me feel so much better.
Especially when Liverpool won 4-1.
SHIOK !
hahaha.
All the screaming seeing my fav. team score one goal after another.
What was ManUtd to them?
LOL.
no offence to ManUtd fans,
but they did play terribly lousy today.
Especially the defence. =/
Can't wait for more such matches b/w big clubs.
Their play of football is marvellous!
Shiok siaa!~
v.long never watch soccer till so high alr!
hahahahah

ps; ahma's condition is improving alr, hope she'll be able to come home soon.(:

2009-03-12T04:11:00.000-07:00

THE HOLIDAYS ARE COMING ! (:
shioooooook sia this week.
Because of all the events that had happen in the week,
i really felt that my week was shorten to days.
Lotsa smile.
Started by having eugene's 16 year old celebration.
It was hella fun i must say.
but too bad i'm lazy to post about it.
so just let me just keep it to the word F-U-N.
haha.
Sports day was great i guess.
Since i did ran for the last year and completed the promise i made to myself. :D
And tadah !
its already thrusday.
Went to lotTEN to had lunch and back home to koooon.
i'm finally feeling refresh after exhausting myself so much. =/
haha.

Jielin, i really hope you can overcome this with a smile in your face.
It's gonna be tough, but remember..
you still have US.

2009-03-07T09:10:00.001-08:00

okay, i'm tired.
but i'm still posting as i can't seem to fall asleep.

Was woken up by my alarm clock at 6 today,
cause was suppose to meet Kienkiat and Eugene at mac for breakfast before soccer training starts.
In the end, i was early & waited for them.
Had just that one hour of short training & went to lan cause gene said he meeting esther later, so still have time.
Then accompanied kiat to look for he's baby birthday present.
So Xian, you better take a look at this post!
Kienkiat travelled a lot today, just to get you a birthday present that you will like.
I could see that a lot of effort was put into it as he was looking for that present that i suppose you have recieved. so, you guys better last long and stop being a razer couple.
Must have more understanding maaa!
haha.
anyway,
Happy 16th Birthday YaoJiaXian.
Lol

2009-03-04T04:00:00.000-08:00

Slacking again.
hahas. :D
Its been kind of stressed up living in a condition that you have to stay focus every single minute each day.
Yeah, this is the life i'm living through now.
But, its really meaningful to me.
As least i have a goal instead of wandering around.
Had a couple of tests this week and i've been studying like mad.
Seriously, its kind of a happy thing when you see that you did pass your test.
After so many years of failing. :X
There will another Add math test tomorrow but i'm quite confident about it.
Its like, everythings easy when you start listening in class.
Haha.
Shall'nt get so confident, in case i still do fail tmr's test. =/
ohya, having a friend in life is also v. important.
& i'm greatful to have my group of friends.(:
been wanting to thank them for such a long time alr.
Cherishing everyone of you, friends.
Thanks for aways being there! :D

2009-02-27T03:01:00.000-08:00

Yet another week had just pass.
I'm starting to feel the pressure of not being able to catch up.
Siansation. -.-
Tried returning to soccer after the last injury
but, my knee still is too weak to do such vigourous sport.
I don't know, but i'm starting to dislike playing soccer.
Everything just end up a bore to me.
Its Friday again & it seems so fast that i, sometimes, did'nt realised it.
So its still gonna be the same routine gamming, going out with friends & studying a little?
Lol, boredom all the way.
Ony day, i really must have a good day rest.
Doing nothing but just at home, resting.
Haha.
What weird thinking i have.
Even my posts are dying, so so so BORING !
okay, done.. gonna go do up the social studies project thing.
hahahahahahahahahahaaaaaaaaa~

2009-02-21T10:28:00.001-08:00

I've been lazy to post on the computer this week.
Simply because whenever i'm bored and i sit down thinking of what to post,
nothing comes to my mind.
School's been great, still having that passion to score.
Though its kindda disappointment when Mdm Chin( my math teacher ) announced that our class will focus more on Elementary math instead of both E&Additional Math.
I wanted to really do well, in everything this year.
Especially for my subjects, which means focusing lesser on Additional math will not benefit me as i always believe that i could cope with my sechdule.
But Mdm Chin did it for the class welfare as she thinks that its not possible for us to focus on both as it will end up a disater.
What to do?
smiling it off i guess, could find someone to teach me instead or teach myself! (:
haha

Practically did nothing in the morning, such wastage. -.-
I did went out with brothers to have dinner and catch the movie; Outlanders.
It was'nt anything ordinary, but still the action packed story line did kept me entertained for the whole one & a half hours? :D
I don't know why am i not sleeping still, but i guess i shall just continue watching teevee till i doze off.
hah

2009-02-13T08:20:00.000-08:00

24hours since my Birthday & i'm feeling every love from all the wishes my friends,
family and everyone i know has gave.
Thank you people once again, for making my day filled with warmth. :D
Especially those whom were there at the dinner, it was sweet, i swear i love it. (:
and since xueli asked me to update my blog, i shall thank her using this chance as well.
she and alisa, really did planned my birthday i can feel.
1 surprise after another.
Thank you short but niceeee person. ;D

School was great today, cause this is the first time i recieved so much blessing and wishes from everyone.
It made me feel that there still people who cares for me, so blessed. :D
so in the end, i spent my whole day smiling and recalling all those happy memories my friends inserted into my heart.
Can't help but saying thank you all yeah! so so much! hahahs.
Friends i should really cherish from now onwards.
Seeing all the happy faces on them last night really meant a lot to me.
WE'll still stay in contact no matter what yeah?(:
Joyous day for me!
hahs

2009-02-07T07:47:00.000-08:00

Its been a week since i have time to post.
hahs.
Been so busy occupied with homeworks, tounaments etc. :/
Good week though. :D
Firstly cause our school soccer team will make it through to the second round if we win our next debut.
And on top of that, i scored a 21/25 for my additional math test that was given on tuesday.
Was so darn happy, its been a loooooooong time since i get such results.
Putting in effort do really pays off.
Bright smille for that! (:
but i have still a long way to go, gotta maintain at this standard.
Studying's fun yeah. Lol

Had soccer training today, somehow its getting on my mental nowadays.
Cause` i think i've trying to be patient will my injured knee & having to miss out with a lot of stuffs i can do in the past.
But nevertheless, i don't think it will bring my passion down for this sport i always love.
So have to pray really hard that i won't get injured once more.
uhm, later on went down to FarEast to support Joselin's roadshow.
Actually not her roadshow la, is css roadshow.
Lol.
We walked around after and caught bride wars later at cineleisure.
The storeyline was interesting i must say.
Must watch more movies for leisure purpose le. :D
If not will get freaking stressed up by the hectic life i'm having.
Lol

it really does'nt matter if you're with me in the end of our story anymore.
its your smile, i care for.
相通了。

2009-01-28T04:21:00.000-08:00

Finished collecting all the ang baos i can have for Chinese New Year. (:
Though this year ang baos not as much as recent years, i still found out that its still the best having that bond with my family. :D
Everytime i spend time with them, no matter good or bad...
I gained something closer.
Like for example, this year, my bonds with my cousins are coming back after losing contact with them for the last 2 years when i skipped most of the family events. :/
So shiok lorhs, got cousins to dota with.
Gamble, laugh, talk, suan and everything.
hahas. :D
Thats for this year, really enjoyed it v. much.

OhYeah!
The better news!
I stood on the field, running AGAIN!
suuuuuuuuper SHIOK! (:
The best thing is i feel that our team is getting stronger, day by day.
Soccer's season gonna start next monday!
so come support please!
We will give our 100++% on the field i swear!
hahs.
Draw against Clementi as a friendly today,
but i was happy with the results.
Firstly, cause KienKiat proved that he can be a better player on the field & coach saw it.
On top of that, Bingfeng starts to understand what it means to play soccer.
He's more confident with handling the ball now.
And, we worked as a team to fight the score back cause we were 1 goal down because of lack of experience by the keeper.
But i think its okay, cause humans do make mistakes.
& i hope he could learn from it.
Jiayou! (:
There's still a long way ahead of us & i hope i can really come back to the team asap and start fighting for wins in the past.
Wait for my CCK.
ChuaChuKang~
BOLEH! :D

2009-01-25T03:37:00.000-08:00

Just came home from ahma's house. (:
Went there to have our annual reunion lunch.
hahahahs.
Its suppose to be reunion dinner but me and my family have a tradition of having reunion lunch.
Maybe cause only in the afternoon would everyone be able to make it for the sumptuous steamboat.
It was great with all the ingredients i like.
Thank you ahma. :D
After that spent some time chatting with my elder cousins.
Trying to gain all the informations about o'level.
Because they are practically those smart arses that got 7-9points for their O's.
So yeah... really must work hard for this year.
If not i'm gonna be the stupidest among them.
sure malu like hell. :/
Lol.
This year "luo hei" also fun.
ahGong & ahma was forced to kiss by their wonderful grandchildren.
as a reward for ahma's hardwork to prepare the steamboat ma.
see we so siao sun. xD
in order to tempt ahma, ahGong put a piece of abalone on his lips and went forward.
BUT... ahma suuuuuuper shy, so she rejected ahGong no matter how much ahGong try to act cute.
Then we all laugh dao peng sia.
dam funny.
stupid ahGong, so old still act cute.
LOL!
This year yusheng was made out of bao yu instead of fish.
but still nice la. (:
I think i'm start on doing up my homework le,
so at least can relax for the next few days.
hahahah. fun day. :D

2009-01-24T00:48:00.000-08:00

Finally got my internet fixed. -.-
Stupid connection suddenly blocked the access to all the blogspot.
Thus, i was'nt able to look at blogs untill now.
Arsehole.
Lols, so asked that April help me post since she can see.
Who knows she post till so lousy. LOL! xD
hah, kay laaa. happy that at least can read blogs again. (:

Woke up at 7 today, guess what i did?
I went for soccer training!
Who in the whole would expect me to be on the field so quickly.
I did'nt even anticipate that i still can kick.
Just that its softer in terms of strenght cause i have not fully recovered from my injuries.
But who cares?!
As long as i'm able to be a part of the team once again,
i'm more than happy & grateful.
It seems like my regular strengthening had repay its price.
All the tough work i had done became the resistance when i fall again.
So, since the tournaments is gonna start one week after the CNY.
Everyone please come support!
Last year le, next time wanna see me and my team play also hard man.
lmao.
I have still a long way to work, but i ain't giving up. :D

I tried to put everything that had past down and smile at you.
but i guess that somethings can never be the same.

2009-01-23T08:32:00.000-08:00

Hi Jarrold is too lazy to blog so ... HAHAHAHAHA.
He wants me to blog that April is not short & that Xiaoyu rocks :D
And errrr.... he is as lousy as his computer. LOLOL.
Bye:]

2009-01-18T06:08:00.000-08:00

Actually don't feel like posting at first.
But since i'm waiting for my supper and i have nothing to do,
I shall write a little :D
Had'nt been doing much this weekend,
Just enjoying my free time now cause there will be more work every week.
Taking a breather from the busy weekdays.
Hahahs
Supper's here, i go eat alr. (:
Lols

2009-01-10T20:54:00.000-08:00

Just watched hotshot.:D
Though the basketball skills are so fake, its a nice show to watch.
Kind of inspiring to me, cause of the content where friendship/relationship etc are all inside.
That means i'm also done emo-ing over my injured knee.
Its not my knee's fault to get to this state once again after a year of hard training.
I should be the one responsible for you cause i did'nt took care of you well enough.
Sorry knee ):
We'll wait till you recover then we go back on the field again yeah.(:
Though i may miss this year's tournament once again, but best wishes to ChuaChukang.
Its our finally year, do me proud!
I am gonna concentrate on my studies and start working towards the future i wanna build for myself.
Sometimes, things may not go right and thus caused unhappiness in my life.
But this time i really think i've matured a lot from every incident that had happen.
From today on, everyday will be a much happier one to live in.
Thats what i promised myself to achieve. :D
Have to go start doing my homework if not i will get scolded tmr. Lols

2009-01-09T01:52:00.000-08:00

Back from soccer.. earlier than time
It was'nt my day i suppose, totally not.
Everything just fell apart, my hopes to play on the field was taken away.
Sigh, i really don't know what to post.
I just need to shout out everything, but i did'nt allow myself to.
I cried, feeling so helpless.
Till i was so exhuasted & no more tears could come out.
Why me?
I'm here trying to get my life back on track.
By treating the people i love with more care& concern.
By putting in more effort in my studies.
By training hard to let my knee recover.
But why me?
Me to fail in everything i do.
I fell down again, but this time its so hard to pull myself up.
With that injured knee of mine.
I am just 15years old age & why do i have to go through all this.
I was so afraid on the field, but i could do nothing to help myself.
I could'nt even stand up on my knee, it hurts terribly.
Both my heart and body sunk.
I've put in so much, what esle can i do to make myself happier?
I just wanna laugh and smile, why does it feels so hard.
The tournament is coming, the one i've been always dreaming to play.
Its this just my luck, or ...
I'm at losing hope to everything.
On the brim on giving up..
Someone, please save me. ):

2009-01-05T02:49:00.000-08:00

I should'nt be using the computer now while blogging but i guess it won't do a harm since i've already completed my homework for the day. :D School was so-so today as we didn't really start onto the texts & content, what we did was some target setting. Kind of boring but i know it will help in me judging where i would stand after every test. Had recess with bfamfam and i gave them the presents i bought for them in taiwan. Hope they all like what i bought. (: After school went to lot one to study & finish up my homework for the day as we promised each other to study every alternate days, so as to improve on our studies together! hahs. The next study time would be either tmr or thurs bahs, since there will be trainings on weds & fri. I just ain't know why, i'm really into studying now. Can't wait for tmr to come so we could start on new topics. hahas. Also borrowed a book from the library to improve on my english, so say no to singlish! Lols. Thats what i've been speaking from the start of secondary one so i guess its time to have a major change. & plus people say i look like angmoh went i put on my contacts, so no harm changing myself. Maybe angmoh more attractive and charming, then more will get to know more friends. LOL. hahahs.
I'll be off to have dinner and continue with my overdued chinese homework. Gotta complete it in one week's time since 李老师 gave the class a grace period. No more owing of homeworks! hahas.

2009-01-04T05:40:00.000-08:00

Watching CampusSuperstar on Channel U now, waiting for Joselin's performance. LOL. Can't believe right? Our dajie from Bfamfam is in this year's css man! Our star in school now making everyone go wow~ on the sight of her. Hahs. So Jaws, babe here jiayouing for you! hope you win hor! haha.
Was woken up by ivan_the_fat cause no one pei him play sf. Hahas. In the end played one match then have'ta go for lunch ler. Went to look for KienKiat & Jeydee while procceeding to the basketball court to do some exercise. Tiring, too long nvr do proper exercise ler, bo stamina liao. -.- Had dinner and went home. Thats all for today. Lols.

2009-01-01T00:22:00.000-08:00

First day of the New Year, everything's gonna start afresh yeah. Hah
Came back from my trip from Taiwan but was too tired to post & plus my laziness, i
shall just make this post a combine of 3days after my trip. Went to meet Bfam guys for basketball yesterday & spent the whole last day of 2008 with them and even started a New Year with them cause we went to Jeremy's house to sleepover. For the year, the only New Year resolution i have is to be able to focus on my studies. Its starting to worry me, its still my future in every way. Lols. So i shall start to study hard & prove how smart i can be. Watch out people! & to bFam/Friends; Gambateh in your studies! Its our year to strive! so i'm off for my last day of sf-ing! adios.

Cause` i believe, i can.

2008-12-21T19:05:00.000-08:00

Had a soccer routine yesterday with Kienkiat & Marcus. Jeydee was suppose to come, but he fell asleep upon reaching his house. -.- Lols. So.. at first we sat down there and looked at the others played cause we didn't had enough people. Thought of going to zhenghua cc as there was another court there, but who knows its locked. Went back in the end to play. Even though there was only the three of us, i still enjoyed playing soccer with them both at night. It kindof calms me down from my busy life. And its hard to get all of the friends to play street soccer together so its absolutely shiok. Hahs. Will be back into soccer for sure as my knee is slowly recovering, can't wait to be in our team once again![: Yeah.. so its gonna be my last day in singapore caused i'll be going overseas to enjoy the remaining days of the holiday. & will be spending my Christmas there, hahahs.
So wishing everyone a Merry Christmas in advance!:D

2008-12-17T03:41:00.000-08:00

Today was heart-warming for me after seeing the concerns you guys gave.
Thanks bros![:
Was jio-ed out to lan at around 2.30 so decide to go as i didn't wanna get stucked at home. I was late cause' i didn't notice the time. So rushed down to timah to look for them. idk but seeing them made my day i guess, at least i knew i was'nt alone. hahs
Dota, Cs was fun with them always. All the shouting just kept my mind and heart occupied. Went to kfc to eat after that while chatting and joking as usual. I can't imagine my life without them, its really gonna suck. Its time to get back to handling my life & getting it back on track. Its not time for me to breakdown anymore, because i know i'm not just doing this for myself.. but as well for you guys. :D

it would never happen i guess.

2008-12-16T19:32:00.000-08:00

Woke up feeling the aches everywhere on my body, scrambling thru' imeem listening to this particular song. I just don't know why this song still kept me so attracted after listening to it a million times. Its a song written by an Unknown artist & the title is i'll try. I guess its really writting out what i was feeling always.

Oh Oh yeah yeah
Gonna miss you,, gonna miss you
I guess It wasn't meant to be, no forever no you and me
I wish it didn't have to be this way,
But I know its better off this way, though its hard for me to say
That to us in a year all we'll be is a memory,
I was so close but then so far away,
Tried to get your love but I guess it wasn't meant to be now its good bye
I'll try not to think about you,
I'll try to live my life without you,
I'll try to ease the pain
But girl, I'm gonna miss I'm gonna miss I'm gonna miss you
I'll try to make it on my own
I'll try not to call your phone
I'll try to let you go but girl
I'm gonna miss I'm gonna miss I'm gonna miss you
You, gonna miss you baby, gonna miss you baby
I thought love was on my side,
never thought that you and
I would ever break up now and wake up in the morning to nothing but to me myself and I.
Would find it hard to fall in love again,
cause my heart just wont give in,
its hard to know I have to start again,
I was so close but then so far away.
Tried to get your love, but I guess it wasn't meant to be now its goodbye
I'll try not to think about you,
I'll try to live my life without you,
I'll try to ease the pain
But girl, I'm gonna miss I'm gonna miss I'm gonna miss you.
I'll try to make it on my own
I'll try not to call your phone
I'll try to let you go but girl
I'm gonna miss I'm gonna miss I'm gonna miss you.
You, ow yeah
No no more happy ever after, no more joy or laughter, no more mine forever oh
And if they didn't ask for us to take I thought the love we had was forever.
I guess it wasn't meant to be now its goodbye yeah..
I'll try not to think about you,
I'll try to live my life without you,
I'll try to ease the pain
But girl, I'm gonna miss I'm gonna miss I'm gonna miss you babe.
I'll try to make it on my own
I'll try not to call your phone
I'll try to let you go but girl
I'm gonna miss I'm gonna miss I'm gonna miss you..
I'm gonna miss you Gonna miss. gonna miss, gonna miss you
I'm gonna miss you Gonna miss you babe
I'm gonna miss you I'm gonna miss,
I'm gonna miss,
I'm gonna miss you.

Sometimes, i really don't know what to do.
& i don't understand why.
Why does it still affects me even though its been a year.
What else can i expect from you?
I just hope to be an ordinary guy, which can be loved as much as i do love you.

2008-12-14T06:41:00.000-08:00

so after last night of ton-ing.
Was woken up by Joel&Kienkiat since they were making a hell lots of noise at my house. They came over for the night and we did our usual stuff. Talk about problems, life, girl[ the fav. subject b/w 3 of us ]. Saw them both played with my brother; laughing non-stop over hiliarous stuffs. My brother sure do love them a lot compared to me. Cause' i always ill-treat him thats why. Lols.
Waited for Jd to come over to my house before setting off to JurongPoint to look for Jack. He said Alfreda wanted to go out with us so went to look for her lorhs. Woah, the thing with JurongPoint now is that its super big. I really mean huge. Packed with people, everywhere you go you'll just feel squeezy. Kindof uncomfortable to walk with such crowds at times. So decided to catch a movie as we had predicted. Watched The Day The Earth Stood Still & the only question i wanted to ask after the movie was, when did the Earth Stood Still? Lols. I knew what the movie was trying to tell or project but it did'nt seemed to have done what it supposed to do. As in i really felt that the movie was just a wasted trip. Hahs. Thats my opinion. So.. went home after that.

2008-12-12T02:47:00.000-08:00

Been stucked at home once again. Hahs, i wonder how i have been spending my days this whole two months of holidays. Will be going to taiwan in another two weeks time & would school holidays would be over by the time when i come back from my trip. Still have a lot of revise but had been lazy till now, so i guess i would study only on the last week of my holiday. I'm always a last minute person. so too bad for my studies, i ain't want you now. :D Lols. Hope to arrange a time where brothers can meet up and go out before my trip since everyone is busy with their own stuff nowadays. Even Joel & Kienkiat's comp broke down and now it has really become only me & my game. But nvm larhs, hope they start studying soon lorhs. If not future goneeee liao. Lol.
Can't wait till my motivation for studying comes. By then, i'll never be free already.[;

2008-12-09T04:17:00.000-08:00

Woke up for my day.
Received a call from kienkiat asking if he could come my house before training starts.
So in the end he creep into my house without me even noticing. maybe my mind was really that occupied nowadays that i hardly give any concern to the surroundings. Lols. This few days so coooold, shivering thru' my morning. Later accompained him to the KFC at Greenrigde Shopping Mall. I ate shrooms burger, just that craving to have one. Went for training as usual, i swear that today's training was super pissing off. Seriously i just dont get it why cant people just listen, i just thought that it was right, why did you fken show your attitdude. &idc also. i just hope that you'll start to listen and be a better player, i know you can and i know you would.
Yeah.. back to soccer, hah as usual my knee felt that pain again in training. But this time, i wanted to complete the training so badly, i played with the pain. i know its the only way out for me- towards any perspective of my life. I need soccer, & i want it so badly. I just wished that my effort would not go to vain.
Mummy bought FerreroRocher, my fav. pastime chocolate.
Had'nt been eating it in such a long time.
They said chocolates have andophine that can make someone happy.
So i guess i shall eat it whenever i feel down and blue.
For now, my life would just strive on for the goals i have in life.
Thanks mum once again for that choco. ^^

2008-12-04T21:13:00.000-08:00

FUCK; this bullshit. Its just only past 1 and so many things have happen. Why?! Why cant you just think & get motivated to go to work and be a normal dad. At least you have mummy supporting you, you have us supporting you. Ain't that enough? Ain't the love mummy giving you feel motivated to stop thinking about those negative stuffs and procceed forward to support this family? Why do you always look down on yourself, feeling that your business would fail every now & then. Why can't you think of the family that is always so worried whenever you feel like this. Is not as if we all left you and dont care about you already right? Its like why would you whine and complain so fucking much when you know not only you have problems in this family dad, not only you. I'm here fucking trying to get my life back on path so that i could stand up once again w/o even telling you guys about my stuffs.Its simply because i aint want you guys to worry about me. But why in the end, you made me so angry about you. I can't understand why, look at my leg? Its not fucking recovering and i'm so fucking piss off with my life now. I fail in my studies, sports and what next? Am i gonna fail in my family as well? I'm trying to numb myself and hope that everything would change after every night before sleeping. Waking up trying to feel new, cant you see that not only you have problems? Why bring it or blame it on us? We didn't do anything wrong towards you. Fucking; disappointed.

I'm sick and tired of everything, everything.
I ain't wanna care anymore.
Fuck; this bullshit.
_l_